David Lynch was my cinematic come-to-jesus moment. I've written about it for MovieJawn before, but I was getting into filmmaking via the Quentin Tarantinos and Kevin Smiths of the era, whose filmographies and careers were accessible in both a real sense-- you could find copies to rent or buy anywhere-- and an intellectual one-- they made movies set in recognizable worlds and influenced by popular culture. And I began to hear about David Lynch.
Everyone was so excited to ask me if I had seen any David Lynch yet. And I hadn't. Until Mulholland Dr. I left that film completely baffled. I was in high school, had never had a film class, and wouldn't have an internet-compatible computer for another 5 years or more.
I was, to put it mildly, unfamiliar with the concept of deciphering a work. Movies were about what they were about; subtext was shallow if it was present at all. Comparatively, Mulholland Dr. might as well have been delivered into my mind from the moon, backwards.
Everyone knew I was going to see it too, so I received many calls throughout the week from friends and family who wanted to ask me what I thought, and that was what did it. A week of explaining to people what the movie was about and why it "made no sense", being forced to think about it over and over, finally led me to some modicum of understanding. It hit me in a very intimate, emotional way-- which in hindsight I realize I was avoiding thinking about-- and suddenly, and forever after, art was changed for me.
In the wake of his passing, I've seen some Netflix CEO saying that they were working on something together, but obviously that will never materialize in a finished form if at all. It makes me very angry. We should have had so much more David Lynch. His filmography should only have been limited by his interest. Hollywood should have backed dump trucks full of money and Cokes into his driveway every year on principle. He should never have had to pitch any goddamn thing. There are so few true originals, and the fact that some of them don't get to work because of how commerce interacts with (read: fucks) art is an actual crime.
But. I don't want David Lynch's passing to bring any more anger into the world, especially not from me. After all, we DO have many works to experience, and they're all pretty easily accessible now. As the man himself said:
"Keep your eye on the doughnut, not on the hole."
Goodbye, David Lynch, and thank you for everything.